For those who don't know there will be a very special person not attending our wedding in 25 days time. My Gran passed away on the 15th April. 

She was to me a very special person and her passing will have a big impact on our big day so requires comment here. She is the second person to die since we got engaged. But unlike Jan who was taken too early, Gran had an amazingly long life for all her aiments. 

For anyone who met Gran you would remember her, she always spoke her mind and was always right. A bit like me really! I will miss her terribly on the day and will probably shed more than a few tears for those that cannot be with us.  However there is a part of me that says if she had made it to the big day it would not have been fair on my grandfather, great aunts and all the others whowill not be attending. 

I do now however that she loved my dress ( I sent her a picture) and she was very happy that Dave and I had finally managed to get round to getting married.  She would be devasted that I am not having carnations as my wedding flowers, but we are having roses which were her second favourite. 

I think if she was coming to the day her first reaction would be to cry and miss my grandad, her second would be to apologise to Dave for an incident years ago which she apologied about 200 times for before she died, and her third would be to say "I'm so proud of you" about 100 times thorughout the day.

I will miss her alot as I know the rest of my family will.  But she had an exceptionally good run and we can all only hope to be so lucky.